Friday, May 23, 2008
i had load trucks of thinking..
mayb its just me.
mayb.
wen i think and and rethink,
i am happy for u.
damn lots of millions happy for u.
budden, wen i thought about it,
i thought of how my life wuld be lyke.
its really complicated.
for me. all regarding myself.
me
i noe for sure i wont be getting someone hu will take me as me.
its veri sad ynoe.
really veri sad.
even ur own family members, ALL
disturb u in a mean wae about urself..
try being me.
n u'll noe wad i meant.
not mentally wise.
physically disturbing.
god made me this wae.
and and wad can i do?
be reasonable can?
maybe im seasoned by the critics.
bud im really not seasoned by the living happily ever after
with someone dats abnormal.
more or less with or without a special fren.
in ur case, i knew it.
it IS better to just let u go.
haha.
been really reasonable about it all.
im veri forgiving.
bud people are just not as forgiving as i am to them.
wonder wen will i get that much of a respect.
thru the daes and weeks dat passed by,
i really can-not seem to be NOT having to see ur face everywhere i go.
why ar?
its really starting to piss me off.
really!
it makes me think the past and the future instead of the present.
now dats ironic!
even just now! my fren's brother have the same features as u.
and den wad?
i accidentally looked at him wen he looks just lyk u!
bloody hell!
wad is happening wit my eyes??
can i go for a trip to a foreign country dat doesnt include guys??
oh maaaaaaannnn..
alwaes ynoe!
this had got to stop!
and i really mean it.
i want to move on.
with my studies and even my career.
i don want to be stuck with him nor his memories pls.
i am so definitely certain dat a guy will alwaes be a guy.
no matter wad.
all.
all the same.
sae me biased bud with experienced in my case,
i think im ryte.
just. just to myself about my physical self.
not to other girls.
dat,don wanna noe.
cuz i have wad they don have.
and wad i have is not a good thing
bud i just laugh it off and try to be as positive as ever.
pls don make me cry often.
i don wanna be xhausted after dat.
thnks.
mayb its just me.
mayb.
wen i think and and rethink,
i am happy for u.
damn lots of millions happy for u.
budden, wen i thought about it,
i thought of how my life wuld be lyke.
its really complicated.
for me. all regarding myself.
me
i noe for sure i wont be getting someone hu will take me as me.
its veri sad ynoe.
really veri sad.
even ur own family members, ALL
disturb u in a mean wae about urself..
try being me.
n u'll noe wad i meant.
not mentally wise.
physically disturbing.
god made me this wae.
and and wad can i do?
be reasonable can?
maybe im seasoned by the critics.
bud im really not seasoned by the living happily ever after
with someone dats abnormal.
more or less with or without a special fren.
in ur case, i knew it.
it IS better to just let u go.
haha.
been really reasonable about it all.
im veri forgiving.
bud people are just not as forgiving as i am to them.
wonder wen will i get that much of a respect.
thru the daes and weeks dat passed by,
i really can-not seem to be NOT having to see ur face everywhere i go.
why ar?
its really starting to piss me off.
really!
it makes me think the past and the future instead of the present.
now dats ironic!
even just now! my fren's brother have the same features as u.
and den wad?
i accidentally looked at him wen he looks just lyk u!
bloody hell!
wad is happening wit my eyes??
can i go for a trip to a foreign country dat doesnt include guys??
oh maaaaaaannnn..
alwaes ynoe!
this had got to stop!
and i really mean it.
i want to move on.
with my studies and even my career.
i don want to be stuck with him nor his memories pls.
i am so definitely certain dat a guy will alwaes be a guy.
no matter wad.
all.
all the same.
sae me biased bud with experienced in my case,
i think im ryte.
just. just to myself about my physical self.
not to other girls.
dat,don wanna noe.
cuz i have wad they don have.
and wad i have is not a good thing
bud i just laugh it off and try to be as positive as ever.
pls don make me cry often.
i don wanna be xhausted after dat.
thnks.
what we could have been, 8:13 AM.
