Thursday, September 20, 2007
wadever the resason.
i think i noe. just mayb.
cuz i donnoe i can be myself animore ard u.
i broke a promise.
the promise i make to myself b4 it all happens.
bud i still go ahead wit it. why?
i cannot let u suffocate just wen i noe the fault is mine.
in fact, i broke another promise!
why cant i just live alone?
why cant i be a lonesome person for the rest of my life?
so dat i wont be hurting anione else?
i don care. i'll live for the sake of myself.
i'll do anithg, wadever it takes, to be alone.
without frens, without a family.
pretend everithg's ok?
argh. wad a joke!
ppl laugh, feel disgusted just by looking at it.
n wad do u think it makes me feel?!
bud i HAV to live wit it all my life!
wad am i suppose to do wit it?
mock me! just throw me into the thrash! wad the hell!
i don care animore!
its so painful. my heart feels lyk its been squeezed hard.
i want to just run away!
as far as i my legs culd carry me.
to be alone. to be with myself.
bud to no avail.
dis is reality. i cant seem to hide it.
bud they donnoe me. the REAL me.
wad i HAV and and wad i own!
its so shameful n its full of disgust!
i hate it! i hate dem!
i think i noe. just mayb.
cuz i donnoe i can be myself animore ard u.
i broke a promise.
the promise i make to myself b4 it all happens.
bud i still go ahead wit it. why?
i cannot let u suffocate just wen i noe the fault is mine.
in fact, i broke another promise!
why cant i just live alone?
why cant i be a lonesome person for the rest of my life?
so dat i wont be hurting anione else?
i don care. i'll live for the sake of myself.
i'll do anithg, wadever it takes, to be alone.
without frens, without a family.
pretend everithg's ok?
argh. wad a joke!
ppl laugh, feel disgusted just by looking at it.
n wad do u think it makes me feel?!
bud i HAV to live wit it all my life!
wad am i suppose to do wit it?
mock me! just throw me into the thrash! wad the hell!
i don care animore!
its so painful. my heart feels lyk its been squeezed hard.
i want to just run away!
as far as i my legs culd carry me.
to be alone. to be with myself.
bud to no avail.
dis is reality. i cant seem to hide it.
bud they donnoe me. the REAL me.
wad i HAV and and wad i own!
its so shameful n its full of disgust!
i hate it! i hate dem!
what we could have been, 7:50 AM.
