Sunday, September 30, 2007
the sKy so hiGh up..
hidden truth.it makes me feel warm inside dat (SOME)ones cared.
bud it also breaks my heart dat i donnoe wad to tell.
trying so hard to sae it. cant.
i hav to tell someone.
at least a thg. to me.
the ppl(person) i tink CAN be frens cant even bother to try,
why shuld i ryt?
some thgs are just not meant to be heard.
u noe wad?
i am not being truthful to myself since the dae we are together.
i had mixed thots about him. and myself.
so now, i tink i want to try and giv it a go.
bud I noe dat even if i sae "..im gonna giv it a try..", i still don feel same wae he did.
so wads the point?
i donnoe wad to feel animore.
the ones im hoping for wont come.
bud bud the ones im NOT hoping for came and even beCAME a part of me.
wad the hell?
im realli not hepie or shuld i sae, ecstatic about all dis.
just by saeing im gonna "..giv it a go.." makes me wanna puke.
i think im gonna be sick.
i realli don hav the ryt to sae dis bud i cant help it.
wad is it to me??
haiyoO.
i cant be thinking lyk dis. i cant. serious shuldnt hav.
wow. im stress. heh.
bud it also breaks my heart dat i donnoe wad to tell.
trying so hard to sae it. cant.
i hav to tell someone.
at least a thg. to me.
the ppl(person) i tink CAN be frens cant even bother to try,
why shuld i ryt?
some thgs are just not meant to be heard.
u noe wad?
i am not being truthful to myself since the dae we are together.
i had mixed thots about him. and myself.
so now, i tink i want to try and giv it a go.
bud I noe dat even if i sae "..im gonna giv it a try..", i still don feel same wae he did.
so wads the point?
i donnoe wad to feel animore.
the ones im hoping for wont come.
bud bud the ones im NOT hoping for came and even beCAME a part of me.
wad the hell?
im realli not hepie or shuld i sae, ecstatic about all dis.
just by saeing im gonna "..giv it a go.." makes me wanna puke.
i think im gonna be sick.
i realli don hav the ryt to sae dis bud i cant help it.
wad is it to me??
haiyoO.
i cant be thinking lyk dis. i cant. serious shuldnt hav.
wow. im stress. heh.
what we could have been, 5:17 AM.
